Unicorns in Wonderland???

Lately I feel like all i do is work and school... school and work... clean and cook and live this mundance life of adulthood... and I know that I am working towards something bigger, towards the life I've always wanted... the beautiful condo and a solvent bank account, towards oversea's vacations and well... stability... But I feel sometimes like I am giving up the life I have now. Like I am not really living... The Cheshire Cat says I take too much on. But i dont know if thats true. Or do i just not have the ability to handle as much as other people cause of my autism... Will I ever catch the unicorn of success or will i always be lagging autistically behind...

I worry about my ability to network, I am more socially awkward than even I want to admit. It scares me, can i be a social worker, a leader, anything other than barely scrapping by in the median???